Dear 20 Year old Me,
You're now getting to turn 30, and I can't believe how far you have come.
Love yourself, mind. body. soul. Especially, your body, it is beautiful and you should be proud of it. You will spend years of your life ashamed, believing that you are chubby and fat. Yes, you have curves. Your boobs will only get bigger, just wait til you are pregnant, but you are nothing to be ashamed of, and never fat- so stop it. Your husband will love your boobs, even though they are not your favorite and bra shopping costs an arm and a leg. Try to appreciate who you are in the now, instead of later.
Stop settling in the boy department. You are worth waiting for and if they want you they will wait. Believe that. It is going to be hard later in life, because you won't forgive yourself for awhile. Sometimes you will even have nightmares of that ex-boyfriend. Even though he was your first love, he didn't love you the way that you deserved to be loved. Do not waste years breaking up and getting back together... do you hear me? years. Trust your instincts. An amazing man is waiting for you!
You were right about a lot of things. You are a teacher, actually an excellant teacher. You stand of what is right, and have a hard time keeping your mouth shut. Thankfully you learn tact and you aren't afraid of confrontation.
You eat your sorrows and worries away, so be careful of that habit. We are still trying to do a better job of that. Focus on being healthy and happy, and do other things when you worry.
Life will bring you a lot of pain and joy and you will survive both, most of the time you don't let how bad things are get to you until they have already passed, then you realize how serious things really were. Family dynamics will be difficult, but be honest with everyone about everything because you love them and they love you.
The main pot holes in life for you are your heart and your body... if you can, find a way to forgive yourself and love yourself more. Be proud that you are a curvy, red haired blue eyed girl. The sooner you are, the sooner you will stop worrying about what everyone else is thinking. You are the only person who notices all the imperfections, no one else cares.
30 Something Me