Thursday, February 28, 2008
I think this is one of my major flaws. Being jealous, or getting jealous. I know its stupid. I know my friends love me. But I still doubt it. Especially if I see events that I wasn't invited to. Work, personal whatever it is, it has been an issue in my life since I was a teenager. I feel guilty that I feel jealous, and dumb as well. I guess it stems from feeling left out. It hurts to see pics or know there was a party and think that you would have liked to of been there, but you weren't invited. And in the real world, where I'm stopping such nonsense, I know that I can't be invited to everything, nor should I. I know that I'm guilty of not inviting everyone I know when I go somewhere or do something, its quite juvenile when you think about it. None the less I still get this way at the age of 27, I don't think its going anywhere either. Although my friends may not know this, I feel truly flattered when they invite me to do anything. It is an honor to have friends that are all so unique and enjoyable to be with.