Tuesday, December 18, 2007
How did this happen?
I know that you may be curious as to what types of things or lack of things proceeded the past two/three years of weight gain. I'm guessing that I have gained about 25-30lbs in the past three years. I feel as though I have always been a curvier body shape than everyone else, especially in my family, and I after my grandmother patted my knee one Christmas, "this is our chubby one", I've deemed myself as big, chubby, fat. Whatever! Since I've always seen myself as overweight, when I really started to gain weight it was hard for me to see. I started working full time three full years ago, and my schedule changed, life changed, my emotions were really involved that first year of teaching. I also started having hypothyroidism symptoms, but didn't know it. I met Terrance, planned a wedding and moved to the boring town of Kannapolis. Far away from friends, with a husband that works constantly and no church, & still thyroid issues, but didn't know yet... oh did I mention I started birth control... my weight ballooned, sizes went up... I chalked it up to the life changes that I had gone through, and thought it would just go away. Now here I am, 179, I can finally, truly see it, in my face, and body. The bra size is ridiculous, don't get me wrong, as my friends can attest, I've always been well endowed, but its too much now. And, I think I'm ready. No more birth control with any extra hormones that cause weight gain, and my thyroid is under control. I feel like a normal person again. I'm excited to lose this extra stuff and feel better about myself! We can move forward now that we know what happened in the past. I think I'm finally excepting that I was never overweight before, everyone else was just REALLY skinny and obsessed. Thanks for all your encouragement. I'm glad that I have you guys by my side!!